It’s a crazy thought. I was numb for so much of the last couple months that it’s hitting me all at once — and it’s exciting! Crazy, freeing, occasionally tear-soaked, exciting.
And I’ve been getting back out there a bit. I’ve taken small steps of re-entering and reclaiming my life. I’ve begun to speak of my body as “brave” instead of “abnormal looking”. I’ve tried to acknowledge and celebrate the small ways I am able to connect with my children each day instead of focusing on what I haven’t been able to do for them in my weakened state. I’m trying to give myself room to heal. And did I mentioned I’m starting to feel so excited?!
So one last thanks (for a while — I’m sure I’ll owe you all tons more soon!) to all of you! At least daily through this 11 month cancer junk we’ve said, “wow we have amazing friends/family — wow we are so blessed.” Even on the days we were also saying, “this is soo hard” we felt your love, we knew you were there for us. Thanks for helping us get here! We love you!!