And then my mind did the most amazing thing, it said "no I don't."
" Yeah, that's right: no I don't, no I don't. I look fine, I look great. I am exactly where I want to be. I am so proud and happy of what I just accomplished. I look great. I am beautiful -- right now in this moment." Then I did something Sarah would have never done a year ago -- I said, "R, take my picture right now."
And I'm somehow really proud and at the same time really humbled. And I get teary just trying to write down how it all feels. And I feel this deep emotional satisfied happiness because I've learned how to see what God sees in me. I've learned how to treat myself with kindness, respect and love. It comes and goes. Sometimes I really feel it and other times it seems just out of reach, but I've worked hard on this journey -- and in this moment I knew I had made good progress.