Which has meant a year of crazy consistent hand pain and limitations. A year of R convincing his professor he can work from home so that three times a day I can say, "Sweetie will you lift H into her highchair? I'm not strong enough." A year of "Mom can you carry me into bed?" and "No, baby, Mom's arms aren't strong enough." And other daily heart hurting moments.
SO in this moment I am taking some time to acknowledge some important things:
It's true, I am not strong enough to push the stroller for our family walks, but I am strong enough to run alongside K on his bike and keep him safe. I am not strong enough to work childcare anymore, but I am strong enough to persist through a month of searching and find a new job I love. I am strong enough to bike myself into that job three times a week. I am not strong enough to lift my children for more than a few minutes at a time, but I am strong enough to help them notice wonder and joy in the world. I am strong enough to show them I love them in a million other ways. I am not strong enough to drive but I am strong enough to accept help and rides from my amazing friend. I am strong enough to be all I need to be in the life God has laid out for me. And even on the days when the pain has made me mostly still and I've had to leave the bulk of things to R, I am strong enough to say, "tomorrow I can try again"
What are you strong enough to do? It would be great to hear about it.